No end in sight... and that's a good thing.

I've always been one that's obsessed with my weight but I try to be healthy about it. You have ups and downs.... but what has always depressed me the most was the feeling of apathy and being lackadaisical. I've had periods of my life where I just don't exercise and as I get older, I pay for it a lot.

My solution was a boot camp. But it's become so much more than a boot camp but finally something that is an exact answer to what I need in life: take the guess work out of scheduling. If I have to find the motivation to actually get out of the chair to go to a treadmill, it's not going to happen very much.

But if I'm going to work out with like-minded women and a drill instructor who gives true tough-love and offers nutrition consulting... FIVE days a week!! I'm there.

They are offered in 6 week sessions and I'm into the 5th week of my second session. The first 6 weeks I kicked butt on the weight/inches loss. This session, not so much....but there are other rewards:

Today we were playing "Chariot" where you have a band around your waist and partner weights you down as you race 100 yards. It's a workout either way, but more so if you're the one doing the pulling. The first go around, my partner was way to easy on me and I breezed by everyone. Second time I went, I figured she learned how to weight me down because it was a lot harder, but I still breezed by everyone.

I turned around and it was my tough-love instructor. Didn't catch that one. And we did it a third time.

That's when I step back and think... it's not the weight loss sometimes... it's the transformation of substance. When you have people looking at you thinking you are running like a Giselle or they are amazed at the power you have while yanking another body across a parking lot...maybe a 3 pound weight loss over 5 weeks is an utter accomplishment... because how much muscle is displacing the fat is something to be considered.

And then my mantra always stands true: What's the alternative? To do nothing? Sit at home on the couch? Nope. This is life... active life. This is what you want your kids seeing... mommy running half marathons... mommy doing her first sprint triathlon... mommy happy.

Ok... so what are you all going to do this weekend? I'll be getting at least a 4 mile run in this weekend and maybe a hard weight workout. I finally benched over 100 for the first time since the rotator cuff...see if we can do it again.